The Elephant in the Temple of Doom Lyrics

Wrought with ptsd

Eat prazosin for the dreams

Sometimes I wish I wasn't me

But would she still love me

Cause that's the only thing she wanted from me

My beauty queen

Rest in peace

We still talk inside those dreams

And lately it's like you're mad at me

Wake up crying everyday I was

Working on dying

Wish you could be here to see the light with your man

That day I wanted to blow my head open

"You're so beautiful my love"

My most potent drug

Turning fent into slugs

Turned turned your body to dust

In my backpack I carry yah

Until the day I die

Cause with you and Layla by my side

I'd be a very different guy

Not fucked up filled with questions on why

You had to take your life

Wish I could take one last look at your eyes

Ironic because the night before

You passed

We were fucking fast

Clashing like some titans that's a fact

Hands tied to the bed

And you said

I love you like I always have

Then I woke up in the morning

To a nightmare

Found your body bare

Naked lying there

Slumped over the toilet

Foil still in your hands

Face a tinge of purple I can't explain

The fucking pain or the feeling that crept over me

Carried your delicate body

Laid you on the ground

Started pumping on your chest and heard that dreaded sound

The sound of fluid in your lungs

That's how I knew you were gone

So I started to put your clothes on

Robbed you of everything but your decency

That's when the panic attack crept up inside of me

Pick up the phone chris and dial 911

In a flash my love was gone

I wish I could have done better by you

June 26th

The day we just fell the fuck apart

Our love was a work of art

All the ways you had my heart

Wrapped up

Stuck

Trapped inside my insolent ways

I sit here today

Wishing that I could fade away

Or somehow find a way

To bring you back to me

Cause I'm stuck here

Incomplete

Stuck up in this rat race no shoes on my feet

Dying inside

Addiction got me lying to hide

All of the problems inside

If I said I was sober, I probably lied

And if I was right in the mind you'd still be alive

Heart broken, missing your eyes

All of my problems I can not hide

That's why I'm going so damn hard today

Trying to keep your memory alive

For all the ones I've lost

My uncle Dustin, Eli, Sophie's smile, my child and all my homies out there still going Damn Wild

I hope I'm putting a smile on your faces now

Instead of watching me drown from the clouds

Feeling hopeful now

I took the rope down

Put the drugs away

And today, I'm finally becoming me

Free from pain

The great shootshitlikecobain