gunpowder Lyrics

I got problems in my head I'm so fucked up

And all my reasons to exist are getting farther

Don't ask me if I'm ok just makes it harder

I might hit me with some lead and gunpowder

If I put a bullet in my head, there's no undo

If I press ctrl z, I still harmed you

So yeah it's selfish I won't argue

That's why I'm stuck up in this hell I can't subdue

Every day I don't know why I get up

Just to do the same shit that made me wanna give up

Just to go to school put work in but its never enough

Just to try making a song and realize that I suck

I'm just a kid in my thoughts, yet everyone has expectations

I don't wanna move on, I'm giving in to the temptations

Lately nothing is fun, this ain't my typical depression

I'm alone in the dark, cause I don't do communication no

Oh no I think I'm losing composure

So slow the way I'm gaining exposure

Don't go too deep into the rabbit hole

It's gon' make you regret it and it might swallow you whole

And don't you try being different that shit gets outta control

Cuz you won't fit in for a minute no matter where you go

And all the suffering is infinite my patience is not

So I waste away my summers as I stay in and sulk oh

If I put a bullet in my head, there's no undo

If I press ctrl z, I still harmed you

So yeah it's selfish I won't argue

That's why I'm stuck up in this hell I can't subdue

Every day I don't know why I get up

Just to do the same shit that made me wanna give up

Just to go to school put work in but its never enough

Just to try making a song and realize that I suck

I don't see light at the end of the tunnel

Demons creeping up on me they do it so subtle

I might give up and I might run away

Questioning why I'm still here, cause I don't wanna stay

It's fucking hard to be me and aint nobody understand me

Understandably, cause aint nobody really like me

I'm an internet kid and I grew up in a country

That won't give me shit, now I'm just trying to get out it (yuh)

I got problems in my head I'm so fucked up

And all my reasons to exist are getting farther

Don't ask me if I'm ok just makes it harder

I might hit me with some lead and gunpowder