Holdin' On Lyrics

You ever been in like a situation you wanna vent

You wanna vent but you don't even know where to start at like

My mind so clouded but I won't let it rain though

I'll just grind until I see the rainbow

You just gotta thug it out fuck whoever ain't with you

I live for the dead it ain't even about me no more

I wanna vent don't know where to start at

I'm happy and sad don't know what to call that

I'll tell you I'm fine when I don't even mean it

Someone tell me where my heart at

Stabbed in the back and it's driving me crazy

Don't know how I'm holding on

Just wanna be left alone

Tell them detectives stop calling my phone

All of that staying down that I did with you

And you got the nerve to change on me

I was right there with him when my dad died

And my auntie put the blame on me

Like I ain't the one who was changing his diapers

Like it was a time they asked me how I'm doing

Trying my best for to hold back this crying

I swear that I tried for to vent but they all looked at me foolish

Looking back at my past it's safe for to say

That I'm proud of myself

Breaking the law I had to take a chance

My mama was pimping and nobody helped

Nobody cared to tell you the truth

Was broke as a bitch I hated the truth

They loving my story and now I influence

They ask how I did it I tell them just do it

Faced all my nightmares I went for my dreams

The tears that I hold back could fill up a sea

My daddy he dead he can't see that I'm shining

I'll make sure these songs up to heaven I reach

I know that he proud of the shit I achieved

I know that he proud to say Harry his son

I caught me a case and I hope he ain't seen it

It's killing me I feel like I let him down tell him I'm sorry

I wanna vent don't know where to start at

I'm happy and sad don't know what to call that

I'll tell you I'm fine when I don't even mean it

Someone tell me where my heart at

Stabbed in the back and it's driving me crazy

Don't know how I'm holding on

Just wanna be left alone

Tell them detectives stop calling my phone

All of that staying down that I did with you

And you got the nerve to change on me

I was right there with him when my dad died

And my auntie put the blame on me

Like I ain't the one who was changing his diapers

Like it was a time they asked me how I'm doing

Trying my best for to hold back this crying

I swear that I tried for to vent but they all looked at me foolish

I'm good you don't even gotta ask how I'm doing

Turned to a fiend I was just going through it

I'm telling the truth what they hear is excuses

It's driving me crazy they sleep on my music

Like do I gotta die for to blow up

Can't even count the times they ain't show up

Gave em my loyalty and they all fold up

Mama I'll go and get it what I told her

She looking for love I got no love

They saying they trapping ain't sold nun

How you tryna come back when you told sum

You a rat it ain't no more to talk about

Know you wrong so you come and apologize

All them times that I wanted to kill myself

The coupe that I'm riding is suicide doors

Harry was chosen and who would've known

I wanna vent don't know where to start at

I'm happy and sad don't know what to call that

I'll tell you I'm fine when I don't even mean it

Someone tell me where my heart at

Stabbed in the back and it's driving me crazy

Don't know how I'm holding on

Just wanna be left alone

Tell them detectives stop calling my phone

All of that staying down that I did with you

And you got the nerve to change on me

I was right there with him when my dad died

And my auntie put the blame on me

Like I ain't the one who was changing his diapers

Like it was a time they asked me how I'm doing

Trying my best for to hold back this crying

I swear that I tried for to vent but they all looked at me foolish