Lost Again ft. Sandman Lyrics

I didn't wanna wake up, if you weren't by my shoulder

Didn't wanna be myself

Tried to hide my thoughts but they could tell

Slowly learning that you're never getting any younger

Put myself in this shell

Negativity became my clientele

You would never seem to need us

All the damage felt grievous

Memories are so egregious

Try to understand why the worst parts are

Always the ones that stand out

I don't know what that's about

Friends say I'll figure it out

Girls tryna love me for the clout

All of that chasing ain't allowed in my home no more

I went and assessed myself, see why I failed so badly

The first mark wrong was loving you just so god damn madly

I let down the guard on my heart

No thoughts that you'd ever tear me apart

You never left me for good

Coz now I got mental scars

Long nights, I'd lay awake

Hope darkness takes you away

If I could open my head I'd take you out

But old habits are hard to break

I want no recollection of us

Don't wanna be mentally stuck

Between both loving you and hating you

Sweet lies are worse than bitter truths

My phone enables, just gets me screwed

Delete the pics and the numbers too

One by one, they're in a que

I'm next to you, like I'm a Q

Is this the way life goes?

Anytime you get a rise, know there gone be a fall

Used to hate it now I'm saying is there any more?

I be running at my issues, where I used to crawl

Gotta let it drift away like this is Jack and Rose

Ain't gonna throw me off of all the waves that I be on

I'm directing all my feelings in another song

When I'm writing words, I'm really just writing poems

I see an issue miles away, I already know it

Intuition every day, everything is slowing

I gotta look at what I say, with a new perspective

I know that it'll be ok, if I learn to love me yeah