hunger Lyrics

It's my friend's birthday

But I'm not gonna touch that cake

That was the day

I made my first mistake

Since then I'm fighting, against hunger

Since then I'm trying, to be better

But I can't love myself

Supposed to have fun at a dinner

But I want to carve my legs like a statue

Sloan has a house with no mirrors

Maybe I need that too

See you later, that's what I said

Cause I couldn't tell them the truth

I have a calculator in my head

Comparing all the foods

I wasted, wasted my time

To become the ideal I wanted to reach

Don't taste it, food is a crime

That's what my brain used to preach

And that's still my reality

I only love myself

When I'm hungry

Telling myself I'm not good enough

Already just bones and skin

Loving myself is too rough

Always too fat, never too thin

I want to reach the absolute

Where I'm so light that I could float

My body is put on mute

I can't sing with my fingers in my throat

I hate my eyes for seeing the worst in me

Ready to pay the price to look like what I want to be

So I eat nothing, so my sadness eats me up

I need someone to help me out, cause I'm stuck

Cause I keep hearing a voice that says

Take the stairs, not the lift, cause you gotta work for it

Ignore the stares, don't you quit, size XS should fit

Don't eat that, don't drink this, even if it looks good

You're too fat, just resist, try to look like her

The more I change to love myself

The less there is to love

Isn't it strange, that at every step

There's always one above

Cause it's a never ending fight

And you'll never catch a break

But girl, it's just one bite

So take that piece of cake