Bottom Out Lyrics

I made it to the top at my rock bottom, bottoming out

Hollow and proud, who the fuck am I? I got em in doubt

Like was I ever really sober when I told you it was over

As I'm loading up the coldest winter boulders in my bowl

It wasn't like me, I was never dripping, I was icy

Made a living on fact and fiction until they hyped me

But I wasn't ready cuz it got heavy and heavier fast

Way in the thick of it, talking different and carrying bags

That weren't even mine - boom - I stepped in it definitely

And it's like immediately it became evident

To me that I'd never know peace or take a breath again

At least not without grief - when I wasn't helping men in need

Women wanted to seduce me, but they broke me

I needed love and it made me hate groupies

You ain't ever gonna take from me again

I wrap my heart in black tourmaline and tumble to win - mothafucka

I don't know what's wrong with my brain

But I know that I can't ever change if I don't try

Don't know what you want me to say

I'm a stone, lemme stay on my own cuz I don't mind

I don't think I need your help

I don't care how hard you try

It's just me, myself and I

Don't try

The only one I trust is my girl

That's my life, you don't wanna fuck with my world

That's my word, lemme spell it out for the class

The only CD that we see is a mountain of cash

It's bigger than music, this is the generational worth

We make the money circulate like a plate at the church

You think it's cake, but this is high stake

This is fuck everybody, out of my face

I am not the same cat that I was back in the day

I had to be saved and it was either that or decay

I picked a path, got my lazy ass outta the way

And took advantage of the automatic fact that I'm great

Cuz it's the truth and I never need a verse to manifest

I shadow box so I can reverse the damages

Of my programming, I'm a man first and foremost

And life's short, I ain't got the energy for foes or your goals

I don't know what's wrong with my brain

But I know that I can't ever change if I don't try

Don't know what you want me to say

I'm a stone, lemme stay on my own cuz I don't mind

I don't think I need your help

I don't care how hard you try

It's just me, myself and I

Don't try