Suicidol Lyrics

Catch me posted in my bedroom

Wondering about my own doom

Walls surround me like a cocoon

While the numb begins to consume

What a life I've lived

Filled with strife and shit

Where's the light and lift

Will you deprive me this

Friend or foe, they come and go

Glee or woe, perpetual

Bye, hello, which is it though

Nympho ho, she love the snow

Metaphors on metaphors

Will they ever open doors

Picasso and Salvador

Will I rank with those before

Will I fade into obscurity

Just someone that used to be

Name known through obituary

Midnight thoughts get too damn scary

I don't know where I'm going

I don't know where I'm headed

Am I even growing

The things I've always dreaded

I'm a blessing in disguise

I'm a star in my own eyes

I just hope you realize

In the event of my demise

I wasn't the worst of guys

I just wanted what was mine

I just wanted what was mine

Was never a stranger to self-sabotage

Always alone, even with entourage

What're my addictions

Habits and contradictions

No over-the-counters, just shit that need prescriptions

Strange encounters with some unknown vixens

Will they always be around

Limbo in the lost and found

Needa know before I die

Needa know before I lie

Down for the night

Or I be up to the crack of light

Renegade, renegade

Lookin' for some better days

Hate the ones that end in ay

No, I haven't been okay

Never know who can I trust

Flow my words like aqueducts

Lift me up like Lazarus

Sorry that I'm hazardous

Looking for some piece of mind

An item truly hard to find

Sadness is my concubine

I never meant to make her mine

Gloomy is my fashion

Muted any clappin'

Flow is losin' passion

What is the point in rappin'