Coming Home Lyrics

Yeah

It's been a long ride

I feel like I had to go through so much

Just to get where I'm at

Still a lot of things you need to know, though

Just need to find the right words for it

Yeah

I never seen this type of shit before

Never thought I'd have to go through this just to make it far

So many problems, it's like I knew the second I start

To give attention to it, I would get chewed up apart

Sooner or later, I try forget the shit I caused

But you ain't stupid, you caught that shit that I threw you for

No matter what I would say, it felt like there was a cost

Another mistake and that spotlight gon' be turnin' off

But see it's hard to try and juggle being who you are

Along with this gimmick, that really doesn't get you far

You either label me rude and moody and sue me for it

Or ride my ass and hope that my success would then yours

Who would'a knew I'd ever be good enough to be flawed

Never wanted to be that someone you can pick apart

Promises never promised, I feel like I'm gettin' caught

Between being who I wanna be and just being loved

Now I'm just being judged 'cause

See, through the days and the nights, I be taking these fights

I don't really wanna do it this way

But I can't say goodbye, this remains in my life

And I just don't want it to stay

From the days I was coming up

It's not the same that it ever was

So I'm coming home tonight

Come to think, I ain't never glorify where I'm rooted

Never claimed to have it all, though you probably assume it

Hear the shit that I'm spewin' right through these rhymes in my music

Then you wonder why people say that I'm violent and crude

And though I just try to be doing the best that I can be doing

Always something that ruins it and it's blinding me through it

Why do I gotta be bruised and falsely accused?

When all I'm doing is using music to bottle me through this

Ain't no telling how far you would go when somebody would talk shit

All it took was bad history with some kid and I lost it

Said I'd kill 'em on the track, then I found out he lost his life

And now I like, was the final line and I crossed it?

Sometimes it's kinda hard 'cause I feel like I caused it

Wasn't tryna start shit, but we all deal with our problems in a different way

I apologize to his family, I didn't mean to say

That crazy line that I said in Break

But it's, sad that it gets to me

All this shit I said, I get roasted like I'm rotisserie

Tell me why I'm so different, jeez

All I try to be is myself and dive in my history

I thought I briefly told my misery in my song Meant To Be

But then it seems, if I don't diss or make hits and anthem's

You won't even listen to shit like this I try to hand ya

It's not that I don't plan to, make my fans happy

I need y'all to understand the, path that I have went though

See, through the days and the nights, I be taking these fights

I don't really wanna do it this way

But I can't say goodbye, this remains in my life

And I just don't want it to stay

From the days I was coming up

It's not the same that it ever was

So I'm coming home tonight

Now see, I'm not tryna do this for entertainment

Even though that is what I do, this is different, can you picture this painting?

I might call myself The Villain, but that shit that doesn't mean

I like to be targeted everyday over shit that I'm sayin'

Ninety percent of you critiquin' me are blatantly hatin'

The other ten percent just doesn't understand what I'm facin'

Ever since Therapy, I should'a cleared up the rumors

I rather make another My Brain than another Abuser

And the sooner I get this shit right off my chest

Is the sooner I can confess to myself, that it's okay if I was depressed

I was just afraid to say it 'cause I know with this shit, I have to tough

And I didn't want no one to think of me less

But then it hit me after so many related to Beautiful

How I wrote that song for me, but people's feelings we're mutual

It was suitable for both of us, openness is all I can give you now

I ain't never shallowin' down, I told you this

If I have so many problems at this point in my career

Imagine what I'd have to deal with it if my shit was up to here

All I've ever wanted was something I can be proud of

I'm muting all this hate and I'm never turnin' the sound up

And if I gotta keep climbing right up this mountain

I promise I'll never stop, to the top is my final outcome

A thousand pounds on my shoulders wouldn't keep me down

'Cause I'ma soldier, and I'll just keep my feet right on the ground because

See, through the days and the nights, I be taking these fights

I don't really wanna do it this way

But I can't say goodbye, this remains in my life

And I just don't want it to stay

From the days I was coming up

It's not the same that it ever was

So I'm coming home tonight

So there it is

I did everything I could, man

Sorry if I let anyone down

Wasn't my intention

But I'm not sayin' I'm finished though

Just gotta figure some shit out

So until then

I'll see ya'll around