Honestly Lyrics

Sorry I've been so out of touch

I know it's been a couple months

Been busy with a lot of stuff that I really can't explain

So let's small talk about nothing much

I'll make up some utopia just for you

Anything to cover up the smoke and mirrors game

'Cause I care what you think when you look at me

I love the prestige, that small luxury

I'll do what I need to make you believe

The person you see is truly happy, oh

So, every day I say I'm fine, picture-perfect

Even if it's all a lie you'll fall for it cause

I'm pretty good at getting by under the pressure

I do it damn near all the time, it's second nature

But if you looked on the inside you'd see I'm hurting

I feel the pain now all the time, this isn't working

So I compartmentalize to keep it together

But all I got are pretty lies that look good on paper

Honestly, honestly

Honestly, can't you see?

I wish that I could open up and

Tell you what I'm thinking of just for once but

It's so much easier said than done

I never follow through

No, I never follow through

'Cause I care what you think when you look at me

I love the prestige, that small luxury

Talking honestly, I'm scared that you'll leave

When you finally see I'm not what I seem, oh

So, every day I'll say I'm fine, picture-perfect

Even if it's all a lie you'll fall for it cause

I'm pretty good at getting by under the pressure

I do it damn near all the time, it's second nature

But if you looked on the inside you'd see I'm hurting

I feel the pain now all the time, this isn't working

So I compartmentalize to keep it together

But all I got are pretty lies that look good on paper

Honestly, honestly

Honestly, can't you see?

Honestly, honestly

Honestly, can't you see?

Maybe one day I'll let you in

Maybe I'll find the confidence just for you

And on that day I won't pretend

I will finally be all of me

Honestly