Thanks for Taking Me Back! (A Letter to God) Lyrics

You know, I don't know what I was thinking

But upon review of the play I was definitely

Tweaking

Fumbled the ball on Super Bowl weekend

Took you for granted like the atmosphere of the

Planet

But when we separated it all fell apart and I started to panic

Put the O in the Ozone, ignoring your warnings like global warning

Alone, there I was, left frantic

I was negative, hypercritical, focused on the wrong things

Think that's what they call pedantic

But then again, that's what pride brings

Well, until regret sings

Yeah, couldn't tell me nothing

Something like stubbornness had a baby with selfishness and named it arrogance

I think I was immature

Yeah, that is

I couldn't care less about your feelings

I was inconsiderate, insecure, inadequate, inconsistent, and probably a few more

I was careless

I was fearless

I mean, foolish, self-deceiving

Better yet, I was ruthless, self-achieving, self-congratulatory, and self-believing

Believing

I was blind

Thought I had 20-20 vision, but it wasn't nothing but the back of my eyelids I was seeing

From behind the whole time

Got it twisted quicker than you could blink

That wasn't even the first time

It's like they said everything I wanted wasn't everything I needed

I was incomplete, hard-headed, didn't learn my lesson, so I was re-enrolled to repeat

Help me, Jesus

Help me find a blessing through this here defeat

To be honest, I'm more than a little embarrassed

I wasn't the fairest

I was everything but grateful, not even the least bit gracious, and I was far from faithful

Actually, my behavior was tasteless

Surprised you didn't leave me on your wait list when it was completely within your power

Since I often ignored you like you didn't exist

Not to mention never went to office Hours

Lord knows what I missed

See, it felt better to feel right than for you to tell me what I was doing wrong

Didn't want to fight, but maybe I should have all along

Just not with you

Should have fought for you

Should have made sure that I adored you

Should have, would have, could have

I'm fairly certain that my excuses bored you

I treated you like a side piece and wondered why I couldn't find peace or keep it

It was fleeting

I was cheating

And for no good reason, in fact, like TLC, I was creeping

Now, how you forgave me for that is beyond me

I'd have treated it like treason or like a person with COVID who kept sneezing

Gross

I'm talking the 6th of January with pitchforks, no masks, and heavy breathing

Like Megatron with Omicron running from Optimus Prime through Cybertron

Hard to believe in, but nevertheless, once again, you're mine and I'm sorry it took all

That time

I was tripping

It's almost as if I didn't realize what was missing

Until you stopped visiting, but I get it

You had boundaries and I abused them

You gave bundles of advice

I didn't use them

You were patient

I kept hitting snooze

Again and again and again

It's funny

There's little worse than thinking you're winning when it's clear to everyone else that

You're giving a clinic on how to lose

It's clear now, though

I just sit back, shake my head and think, wow, what a clown, what a buffoon I was

Valued a vast vocabulary and yet still I cussed

I played myself and the self-pity card

What a bad hand I had

The opposite of a flush

Bluffing

Thought I had something

Instead, through some self-reflection, turned out to be nothing

The opposite of a spread, so I folded and let introspection win

Thought the game was over

Due to what I lacked in my unwillingness to receive correction

But then you took me back

But what was it

I forgot to ask

Why did you take me back

It couldn't have been that easy, was it

My therapist told me it's important to understand

How I made you feel so that I could learn

From it

Help me understand

It's not like you needed me

There's plenty of other fish out there in the sea

Pray tell, what in all the oceans and on earth could it be

I know it's not me or something I did

I'm definitely not worth your favor

Don't fall too off and out-gas myself and act like I was the one doing you a favor

What's that

Oh, you love me, huh

Yeah, I love you too

Well, I want to

I want to make that sentence true

I want to make it do what it do

I want you to know that there's no place like being right up under and next to you

Look, this here's what I'm going to do

This time around, I'm going to put you first

Listen and avoid interrupting or even worse, replacing you with something

But I ain't just going to listen

I'm going to do what you say, do what you like

Do what you want and do what I was called to

See, I was made for you and by you, FUBU

So today I'm feeling free

No, new

Planted

Yeah, I'm ready to grow in you

Not just in crisis

No, no, no

Not just while I'm going through

That's not what I want to do

Just send a purchase order over for the fertilizer before the balance comes due

Then the Holy Spirit can be my supplier

And whenever I come up short

This oh so holy advisor has the power to pick up the slack

And make me wiser, keep me on track and erase every invoice prior

Anyhow, I really just want to thank you for taking me back