For Those Listening Lyrics

Yeah

I been going through some shit lately man

Im just goin' talk about it

For those listening

Im truly sorry for the statuses I've posted

When I dont wanna feel alone or hold it in I post it

They say they love you but tear you up like a poster

You're strong just move on and since Im a man I'm suppose to

They welcome you hopin u'd trip over the door step

But when its for some bread they pop up quicker than a toaster

For loyalty you know I never raised the cost up

Momma still prays for me she know she raised a monster

When I'm also praying for you and its hurtin me

Cus every time I call you its another fuckin surgery

When I visit, I hold a smile thats all you want to see

But then it turns to tears when I walkout the emergency

And I hope that you ain't hearing this either

But lately all the strength im puttin in been makin me weaker

If I go sick I hope its only a fever

Cus this dawg ready to shoot like that golden retriever

I remember tellin pops that I'll never be you

Now when I look at the mirror its like I'm starin at you

And its crazy cus I was traumatized as a kid

To only get older and live the same life that you lived

But I'm glad that you changed, it still dont feel the same

You became the man I wanna be but can't be and its strange

How'd you make it out the pain

I know losing momma wasn't easy cus you deeply

Was depending on the cane

And I got caught up in the chain started just from selling weed

To doing drugs not givin two fucks what they did to me

Its sickening

Is this real or is it still a dream

You can love your life and in a min, its just memories

Last night I seen my life in a flash

I thank god I'm alive

Cus I almost died in that crash From driving too fast

Drinkin a whole bottle of Jack And smokin the gas

Wonder how life be if I passed

But I'm here and I'm grateful though

Yea, thought I took a loss but that car is replaceable

Ima get me more

All it was, was a wake up call

Another day alive cus I got kids I gotta wake up for

So before ya try and say that I'm alcoholic

Try and feel my pain and you'll see where all the trauma started

Don't try n be a fan now if you ain't supported

I dont even vent to people now I rather just record it

Foreal

This for those listening