Survivor's Guilt ft. Lil Bean Lyrics

Sometimes I feel guilty for surviving

All these niggas in my hood, I'm one of few that's Really thriving

I keep missing prison calls, there ain't no service When I'm flying

And they keep bringing up the past, but all them

Memories is childish

Fuck, shit, my emotions got me wildin

How do one or two mistakes send people's lives into A spiral

You make it out, if you don't treat them like day one Then you a rival

I know I dedicated my whole life, but why can't we All survive it

And I ain't made it far, but in the end, I'll make it far Away

Believe me when I say, there ain't no traffic in the Harder way

Workin' every day in every way, I play a smarter Game

Crabs in the barrel, why the crabs in there anyway

Toast and look away, that ain't just someone I want In the gang

Hatin' on my style, but see, my style got me plenty Fame

Isn't that what matters when you scrollin' on that Instagram

Most of the shit you see ain't even real, it's really Fraudulent

Deep down in my soul, I just wish that you could see It all

Why would I on purpose leave my friend when we Both could ball?

Riding by myself, really thinking where we started Off

Different cities that I'm seeing got me feelin' like I'm Livin' wrong

And you can't even say what's goin' on

You bottle everything, so you walk around a ticking Bomb

Take it out on shorty or the homies, you can't keep it Strong

I've seen and heard it many times, I just chose to Really hear the song

Now tell me, was it worth the profit?

How come you couldn't go and get a job instead of Robbin'?

How come you couldn't put down all them pills that You was poppin'?

How the hell you let that slime turn you into the Green Goblin?

I know the pack is legal, but you can't smoke away Your problems

When I told you I would make it, I expected you to Follow

And I can't fuck up written plans, cause God'll turn Around and mock it

Livin' life at six feet, but now you six feet in a coffin

Yeah, and now I'm livin' with Survivor's Guilt

Got me livin' with Survivor's Guilt

Yeah

Remember dreamin' bout them flights, I couldn't Buy a ticket

Mama said them ain't your friends, so just pay Attention

I can't slide with niggas, no I can't ride with niggas, No

I ain't never once complain, I just gave the shit my all

I had dust all on my body, I just had to shake it off

Never bigger than the struggle, I'ma always play my Part, yeah

I got diamonds for the dark

If I feel it, then I feel it, I can't change what's in my Heart

On the path to success, I'm tryna follow what's in My heart

Lil' bro, he keep that iron, his name Tony, Tony Stark, Yeah

Shit, had to up the standards

I'm tryna live cause in these streets, it ain't no Second chances

I'm tryna buy some real estate and leave it for the Family

And lately I'm in Brady mode like Sheduer Sanders

Yeah, plane rollie told him hold the ice

Shit, I've been rockin' Rick Owens like they coke Whites

I just been thinkin' bout my dog on them lonely Nights

Like you supposed to be right here thuggin' with me On these flights

Sometimes life, you can't prepare for it

I need more face time with my mom, but she got Android

I miss so many jail calls at the airport

A lot of times I went without, but I'm a man for it