Esoteric Candor Lyrics

You'll never understand

Takin' the red pill; bein' the one unplugged from The Matrix

But stuck in the fakeness

Tusslin' fate and runnin' from agents

Standin' on the roof of skyscrapers and jumpin' when faithless

Facin' the plunge to the pavement; I'm just touchin' the basics

Don't try and bend the spoon; that's impossible

Bending the spoon is just a deeper metaphor for any massive obstacle

The truth is, you spoon-less and you only bendin' yourself

Meaning the only task is conquer you; adjust and better yourself

But 33 years wit' nothin' to show for it

The struggle stole my drive like it's nothin' to chauffeur it

My mind tellin' me that I'm so worthless

Like a horny nigga wit' a foot fetish browsin' the web, it got me soul searchin'

I made mistakes that I can't erase, but too ashamed to state

Afraid to face

So my gaze fixate where you constrain your laces

The pain is weighin' on me like Damon; that's in a major way

Hawkins, Indiana the Upside Down; my brain a stranger place

After thinkin' I'm a burden and finally lettin' go of things inside and hurtin'

My mind is workin' like Tyler Durden when findin' purpose

Projectin' mayhem

Destroyin' the illusion of what's success to Layman

Sidesteppin' contentment, to reach your destination

Knowin' death is waitin'

Wit' arms stretched and impatient

And you not your savior's special creation, so no breath is wasted

Only after caressin' the depths can we resurrect and then change it

Freedom from the stress of expected, the rejection and hatred

I'd pop to fit in

But like the intrinsic field locked when the watch was in it

I'm met wit' Jon Osterman ostracism

The clock is tickin'

Recluse 'till I'm disconnected

Refrain from sendin' texts

Prayin' she get the message; she never do

I sold my stock in women, teleported to Mars; on a rock, I'm sittin'

While I plot, revisit the lack of comprehension

Dodgin' the opposition

Wishin' that the tocks were different

Tachyons block my vision; drop the picture and jot this written

You'll never understand, nigga

You'll never get it