What is my main mis/sion ? Lyrics

Can't stop overthinking

What is my main mission?

I talk bunch of nonsense

And somehow they still get it

Shit I've done a lot of things

A person might regret

I've seen too many things

That my mind cannot forget

And I pray up to the lord

Every night before I rest

Hoping I can make it out before I finally stare at death

Directly in his eyes

Cause I do not fear him

There was many times

Where I should've seen him

It wasn't my time

I can say that's for sure

Cause I'm still alive

And that shit I assure

I'm high out my mind

I cannot be sober

I got bunch pain that I can't get over

These drugs didn't help

They just had me coerced

My ex bitch done left me in mid October

Thought I knew her

But I really didn't

Thought I won her

But my shots

I missed them

Thought she loved me

Guess I was delirious

And for her hate

I was the main recipient

She showed me love

I tried to change

I tried to clean my image

Put down the cup

Stoped smoking dank

Tried to quit my addictions

I finally cared

I finally realized

That I have to listen

I finally felt like someone else was figuring out my mission

I finally felt like someone else was figuring out my mission

Lord please forgive 'cause you know that imma keep on sinning