For Your Ears Only Lyrics

I just sit back, I be thinkin'

The cup that's in my hand might ease the pain if I just drink it

Or should I roll this weed to cloud my thoughts, so I don't think it

Temptations to fill the parts up in my heart that now are vacant

I'm tryna be strong for the people in my life, I know they shakin'

This one from my mom, cause I don't know where I would be without Mabel

I learned shit from my pops, he said, just go to school and you gon' be major

I went to college, took care of business, and I made it my major

To make the money, gotta look like money, went and bought some blazers

Invested in myself, felt like a DJ turnin' tables

Gotta watch who you give your heart to, cause they just want the label

As soon as you do it go from I love you to I hate you,

You feel entitled, sendin' me paragraphs, want me read it, read your Bible

Depression been creepin' up, it's been hard for me to fight it

The thought you was you havin' was happy, now they suicidal

Wonder what's on my mind, I'll open up and I'll invite you

2016, G Dawg had died wish he kept fightin'

Seen Cuzzo die at 13, I swear that shit was nightmare

Started smokin' weed for the buzz, hopin' that'll be a lightyear

I know you at the heaven gates, but I'm still wishin' you was right here

Sometimes I blame myself, I wish I stopped that shit from happenin'

Sometimes I wanna give up, but God want me be a rapper

Sometimes I wanna hop up on the track and tell him how I feel

But I was scared to hear the laughter

I was tryna get some money

Me and Drilla, we was trappin',

havin' dreams up in the hills, so how my brodie in the casket?

Strugglin' with the bills, we still made a way after every disaster

Big bro influenced me to stay in school, he got his masters

I tell him there's some shit in life that I'm still tryna master

I'm knowin' that my time is comin', I'm still tryna move faster

Jugg had died at a young age, I hate the way they closed his chapter

Drilla up, and he left me when he told me he gon' start rappin

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My parents raised me the right way, it's what I went through that adapted me

I been rappin' for years, could give a fuck about the status

You losin' loved ones, that's when you realize family matters

You got PTSD, you clutchin' hard when you in traffic

I'm watchin' my mirrors, it's the same car that just had passeed me

Ain't trustin' no one, try pull a move and I'll start blastin'

I'm protectin' myself, but how they see it is I'm crashin'

This for you only, so please don't tell them what had happened