I Have No Idea! Lyrics

I sit and ponder

Wondering, "what's my purpose"

I'm walking blindly

Wandering, feeling like it's worthless

Praying for this to pay off

Feeling guilty for taking a day off

Want to allow myself to rest

But if I do I don't think this will take off

Honestly, I don't know what it is

Don't know what I'm doing here, I'm just a kid

17, I've got my whole life to live

But I'm stuck thinking the only thing that matters is making it in this music biz

Yet I'm stuck at a standstill

Been like this for a year now

My friends hardly even play my songs

My mind's filling with fear now

Keep thinking I can make it work if I just try harder

I could be lightyears away, or standing on the border

God, tell me there's more around the corner

Oh, but if I'm being honest

I have

No idea what I'm doin

I've got dreams I should be pursuing

Ina state of confusion

But I know I'm just human

No clue where to go from here

Heart's crumbling to ruins

Implicitly crying for answers

Do you hear me?

Listen, God I hope you can use me

Lately I've been feeling stuck in my mind

Running my race, feel like I'm running in place

I know You've got a plan, but I still feel so behind

I wanna perform another show but no one's booked me

Stuck in my bedroom writing songs I feel like no one'll listen to

Tryna get their attention but not even my friends are looking

Am I doing something wrong? Misusing the gift you've given to

Me, I've been doing my best to use it for Your glory

I mean, yeah, I wanna be known, but not pridefully

Just enough for people to hear the music, I've been working

Been in a hurry, getting worried I'm not worthy

Enough for this gift

Yes, it's Your name I wanna lift

But I've been struggling to submit

This music to You 'cause I don't see it working, got me wondering

Keep thinking I can make it work if I just try harder

I could be lightyears away, or standing on the border

God, tell me there's more around the corner

Oh, but if I'm being honest

I have

No idea what I'm doin

I've got dreams I should be pursuing

Ina state of confusion

But I know I'm just human

No clue where to go from here

Heart's crumbling to ruins

Implicitly crying for answers

Do you hear me?

Good things take time

But I don't ever take mine

Living in a rush

But I can't rush Your plans for me

Gotta give You my rhymes

My music, my passion, my life

God, help me learn to adjust

To Your plans, set me free

I'm a slave to perfectionism

I'm a slave to chasing my dreams

I'm a slave to doubt

I'm a slave to the screams

I'm a slave to attention

I'm a slave to the music

Save me from myself, God

Come into my life, this music, please use it