Sell My Soul Lyrics

Is this what I'm meant to be

Is this what I'm meant to do

Is this all I'm meant to say

Am I getting through to you

Every story that I write

Every song I ever sang

All the art I made for you

Always comes across the same

Should I just give up the game

Should I give them what they crave

Never one to rock the boat

Just stick to the notes they gave

I'll just play the same old chords

They've been playing all my life

Never mind if it sounds good

Just be better than…fuck

I could never write a pop song

Never a best seller

She still believes in me

What should I just tell her

If I was a rock star

I could make a killing

Be the next big voice and

Always make it thrilling

I could be a hero

To a generation

But would that fit in with

Anything I'm making

All I want to be is

Something I could never

Is that something new yet

Is that something clever

I'm a mess now

Not a man

Nobody knows

What I am

Can't write solos

Can't write prose

Could draw better

I suppose

Not a woman

Hardly hot

I'm defined by

What I'm not

Is this something

Like at all

Or have I just

Hit a wall

I'm too rich to be a punk

I'm too punk to do ballet

I'm too queer for country songs

I'm too southern to be gay

I'm too white for R&B

I'm too cheerful for the blues

Too self-hating for myself

And too self-centered for you

I'm too nerdy to be cool

I'm too lazy to be smart

Too angry to work a job

Too impatient to make art

I'm too young to miss the past

And too old to make a scene

I'm too rude to be polite

Too self-conscious to be mean

If anybody asks you I'm not here

I could be the failure of the year

I could have my one real break and choke

Wouldn't that be one sad All She Wrote

Is this what I'm meant to sing

Is this what you want to hear

Is it better if I stay

Or if I just disappear

Is it wrong to want applause

For the work that I put in

Or is it because there's none

That they're picking at my skin

Am I getting it across

Everything I want to say

I don't know if it was clear

But I'm gonna be okay

I just wish that I knew how

To make something more divine

I don't want to sell my soul

Just to make art that isn't mine