DOUBLE DOWN ft. Dyllyn Lyrics

I been meaning to talk to you

I've been tired of these lies

Always in the mirror saying shit about my disguise

Wanna kill me softly

Lauren hill is one who taught me

Everything is everything

And I've been meaning to mediate

But this mind racing faster everyday

Will I make it or will I fail

My peer are so much more ahead of me

Honestly I'm scared

Telling Marco to be strong

Yeah cause he just made the jump

Hard to tell myself these things whenever I'm just in a slump

Facing consequences lately

All this reckless spending

It's getting harder to maintain

Trynna be sane

While fight insanity

Hope my momma don't find me somewhere cause I've given up

I'm too scared to let go and that shit got me stuck

Feel this way too often

Feel this way too much

Let me go

Let me go

I swear I ain't given up

Let me know

Let me know

Am I enough

Am I enough

Just told my momma I love her

She probably think I'm in trouble

She probably think that I'm down bad

But I'm up on a double

Hope they can't tell that I don't feel the same

These sins of doubtful is my middle name

See I'm trynna change that

Take a step back

Before I relapse

Just because we haven't spoke

Don't mean my passion is killed

It's just my reason for leaving

Is cause you could never healed

See healthy relationships don't mold

They break and rebuild

What you did to my family dawg that shit really killed

My momma stronger than anyone than I've ever met

2 kids scraping by to get shit payed, yeah

That's a different respect

Its a fuck you out of spite

But my feelings tell me instantly

Pain isn't the burden

It's the fact that you is me

Another fatherless child

That's how it goes now and days

Reasons why these kids is pushing kilos now and days

Reasons why I've been staying consistent

Trynna go get by on a mission

Make everything change in an instant

Can't fall back now

Cause I've been working till the sun is up

This for the ones who don't feel like they just didn't place enough

Gave you my all and you reached out just for another one

And I've been finding my reasons

Tryna live life with some meaning

Just told my momma I love her

She probably think I'm in trouble

She probably think that I'm down bad

But I'm up on a double

Hope they can't tell that I don't feel the same

These sins of doubtful is my middle name

See I'm trynna change that

Take a step back

Before I relapse