CaN't FiNd mY sMiLe Lyrics

(Sagittarius got sum here)

Lemme make something very clear

Y'all don't fucking know me

But I will let y'all know something though

It's been a minute since I've gotten the chance to actually speak

Say what the fuck I want to say

(No interruptions)

Do what the fuck I want to do

(No one cutting me off)

Now y'all just gotta watch

I'm stone faced with bitter tastes in my mouth

I've gone south I can't return I need space

I'm locked out of my brain out my house

It seems loud sometimes but this ain't your place

Feel free to leave at anytime I don't care

These niggas gone so fast they like some thinning hair

They say I switched up that statement is not fair

This how I've always been you just haven't been there

I've been losing my smile since I was thirteen

Man I was putting up fronts it wasn't what it seemed

I felt out the loop I felt crazy

I didn't know who I was, split personalities

I was looking around trying to get certified

By some niggas with girls around them like fruit flies

They was lost like me but I was fucking blind

That shit I could not see had tightly closed eyes

I hadn't opened them til now, now all I see is frowns

A constant front of feeling proud while trying not to drown

These people tell them how to live and that shit bring them down

You is not Jesus nigga you just a fucking clown

They've been thrown in the deep end from the beginning

Told don't express your feelings and to keep them hidden

That shit just eats them up inside but they keep on living

They just hope that it goes away but it keeps on hitting

If you cry you're not a man is what I've been told

So then those tears just turn to anger and that anger grows

Angry at the fact that you can't tell a nigga shit

Without the possibility of being crucified or lynched

On social media the toxic hoes and trolls roam

They want to chip at your broken parts and steal your soul

Look no soul goes untouched by corrupted lips

No matter what you'll fall victim to false endearment

These people ain't real they made of cheap old fucking plastic

They teeth is rotting from the shit they say it's bombastic

Quick to tell me good things make me feel fantastic

Looking at your smirk bitch I know that shit sarcastic

Double-crossers backstabbers those are just some classics

It don't matter what they called just know they like some acid

They're quick to call you twofaced when they've been problematic

When all you've done is been there for them trying to clear their static

Sometimes it feels like I'm forcing the smile

At least lately it has

You know like the past couple years I just

I haven't been feeling it

Like like somethings been missing

Like

Maybe it's something I need to do something I need to change

But I don't what it is I don't know

But maybe I'll figure it out you know

Maybe someone or something will come my way

Who knows?