Infected Lyrics

I'm nothing but sorry

Wish that I could fix it

I'm nothing but dumb

Repentance been on my wish list

My bones are clicking

I want more limits

Cuz I hurt everyone around me within minutes

Don't bandage my wounds

Leave scars to warn

I don't wanna be soothed

When within myself is a raging war

I don't expect anyone to take my apologies

All I know is I screw up everything around me

I got God prolly looking down on me

Judgment day feels like everyday see

Why do I still have friends

I'm nothing but a mess without end

Why don't you all just forget about me

Why can't you forget about me

I'm sorry to my mom

I'm sorry to my dad

I'm trying my best I'm tryna be glad

I'm sorry to my peers

I'm sorry to my friends

I'm trying my best I'm tryna not to be sad

But it's harder than I thought

And it gets harder every single day

And the harder that it gets the more I feel I can't say

Cuz when I do

Someone gets hurt

And when they get hurt

I just feel worse

I can't fix this

I've been losing

Forget winning

I've been sinning

Can I get someone to take away my demons

I wanna be asleep, hope I'm dreaming

Wish everything I did could be undone

Wish I never hurt my closest loved ones

I don't want to be the cause

Man I wanna pray to God

But it's getting kinda hard to stomach myself

I just wanna find out

Why I wanna cry out

Why I really wanna shout

Why am I in a hell

But I'm not even dead

So I think in my head

Can I really shed

Can I be a better person

Can I fix my mistakes

Can I heal my pain

Can I not be drained

I wanna get to learning

I'm infected

The infection

It has bested me

Like depression

I have not learned

I keep getting burned

I keep burning others

Wish I didn't

Cuz I think they're like a brother from another mother

Now I'm scared to where I kinda stutter

And I'm dreading I might hurt my lover

There's not a day that I never love her

I'm praying I don't hurt what helped me out from under

If I could apologize to everyone I would

If I could man I would

Like I should

I should shut the f up for good

My heart is stone and my mind turned wood

I got a disease

It'll leave me deceased

All alone with the beef

That I don't wanna keep

Wish I could make amends

With the women and the men

That I hurt in the end

Are you saying amen God

Why you letting me play this game God

Why you letting me take this pain God

Why you letting me spread this pain God

They'd be better off without me God

I'm depressed

It's a mess

And I'm sorry

Nothing less

I am failing

Your test

Sticking out

My neck

Got me

Disrespect

I can be quite vexed

Then I think

What's next

I'm not my best

No

I can only hope we all can see both sides

I can only hope I can apologize

I got what was coming to me

but I'm still not done

So I refuse to cry