white lilies Lyrics

I don't know how I did end up here

I'm supposed to know how to be still

Amidst nothing, am I allowed to feel?

Maybe I'm just way to weak for this

Those bleak mornings and those blinding nights

Now seem like a shameful waste of time

With all these words and these flashing lights

Is anything really meant to last?

And I know, I know that what I thought before was far from reality

But to keep myself sane I may as well fade into the fantasy

Sorry for this mess, didn't really meant to spit it out this way

I just wish you bought white lilies for me

I cried every night to seal my fate

Promised myself not to fall again

There's just too much salt sewed on my hands

I'm just trying to win the loser's game

All the songs that I sang were a lie

Learnt that the void is not worth the rush

I'm just praying for one of your signs

Just make me feel like I'll work this out

And I know, I know that what I thought before was far from reality

But to keep myself sane I may as well fade into the fantasy

Sorry for this mess, didn't really meant to spit it out this way

I just wish you bought white lilies for me

I feel like I did all that I could

Given more of myself than I should

What do I do if all I see is blue?

Drowning when the sky did break in two

And I know, I know that what I thought before was far from reality

But to keep myself sane I may as well fade into the fantasy

Sorry for this mess, didn't really meant to spit it out this way

I just wish you bought white lilies for me

I just wish you bought white lilies for me