Loving The Enemy Lyrics

Hello, I hate to interrupt the fun but I have to express

The past couple of days I've spent basically goin through hell and back

The devil promised that he would never ever stop fighting me

To him I am the devil and that is so easy not to see

You don't mind opening the gates allowing strangers in our sacred space

Inviting traitors to a party to potentially destroy our place

To leave their ugly traces and to desecrate my fathers grave

While I'm collecting shards of broken mirrors just to save some face

And just a moment later I am literally laughing out loud

How dare I justify my weakness with excuses oh so proud

I'm jailbreaking my mind

To take a look behind

My shell shocked self inside

Unsure

You are the consequence of every step I took on my light path

A song without a goal, no destination and no aftermath

I am so happy that I take the time and listen to my pain

Cause pointing fingers at you is just like judging the sun, it is like blaming the rain

Even though I am not sure you understand what I am going through

Well, let me just say I'm learning to love myself through loving you

I do admit I sometimes wish you would acknowledge all the courage it takes

And feel the weight I'm lifting off my shoulders and the massive difference it makes

There is a spark of fear of losing my mind but there has to be

I don't wanna be wounded but I long for vulnerability

I'm jailbreaking my mind

To take a look behind

My shell shocked self inside

Unsure what I will find

Baby I'm only a man

Trying the best I can

Breaking my heart all over

Baby I'm only a man

Tryin the best I can

To reconcile with my pain

Then breaking myself all over again

I'm alone in the forest over candle light

We agreed on you to break my heart tonight

You're somewhere out there dancing with the enemy

Choosing candy over my sanity

I hope I'm not doing the devil any wrong

Ignoring his whisper trying to keep me from singing this love song

I'd set sail before but the stern would burst

You only get so far without losing the anchor first

I can't ignore the call of the sea anymore

The perfect storm is blowing violently offshore

I love you so much thats why I'm not coming back

Cause I want parts of me dead

So I lurk beneath the surface spying on my fearful voice

Kindness is the weapon of choice

I'm jailbreaking my mind

To take a look behind

My shell shocked self inside

Unsure what I will find

I'm jailbreaking my mind

To take a look behind

My shell shocked self inside