went to bed awake, woke up asleep Lyrics

I went to bed awake and I woke up asleep

I been trying to get better it gets harder every week

As the minutes passing by

I wonder if I did alright

Did I impact someone's life

Did I give them a good time

No

I don't wanna be that guy

Too much pressure for someone's life

I don't wanna go to bed forever

Forever

Don't you tell me never

I was wide awake now I'm dead asleep

I'm sorry

I know you never saw me

I got the liquor out

Force the paranoia down

And its so hard to live

I got no love to give

Emotions feeling null

My brain not in my skull

I'm a shell of who I was

I push everyone away

I'm ashamed of who I am

But I guess he's here to stay

This ain't me

This is him

Can you save me say my name

PTSD got my nervous over any small change

Cause

I went to bed awake and I woke up asleep

I been trying to get better it gets harder every week

As the minutes passing by

I wonder if I did alright

Did I impact someone's life

Did I give them a good time