Mixed Emotions (Inspired by Dark Clouds) Lyrics

Life came fast but I still got some youth in me

And I ain't really proud of the person that I used to be

Turned so cold hearted I ain't choose to be

It was from people I loved but were abusing me

Got so many scars that ain't heal right

Wanted you back but it ain't feel right

Homie in the trenches holdin' on to that steel tight

Girl of my dreams my worst nightmare in my real life

Coping with anxiety trying to find emotions still lingering deep inside of me

And I finally,

Realized why you lied saying that you'd slide for me

Trying to outrun my demons but they keep finding me

I know that we're stressin battling our depression

If I'm the one why you always second guessing?

Want to question God but have to trust his methods

Lyrics my confessions listen to feel the message

I've been torn apart for so long I done became numb

Don't know if you remember you broke my heart in December

You said I was the one

You had me, but you lost me

I'm not mad I'm exhausted

Please, please if you come around give me something to make me smile

It's so many dark days, it's so many dark days and dark clouds

Been so many dark days, been so many dark days and dark clouds

It's so many dark days, it's so many dark days and dark clouds

Been so many dark days, been so many dark days and dark clouds

Those cold long nights I think about it daily

Even if I don't make it this music really saved me

Sleepin in the back seat only some know how them days be

Don't think you would praise me if you saw how I went crazy

I'm tired of all this tension I don't need your attention

We all make mistakes but yours were never mentioned

Dial up your number while I'm drinking in my section

Know you still in love with me, girl just stop pretending

Money can't buy happiness you know this because you well of

I know you see me now wishing that you still held on

Admired what you stood for, until you fell off

My love for you is bigger than the ocean so I sailed off

Hearts frozen, soul shattered and it's stolen

How will love heal me if that's the reason that I'm broken?

Always playing games but that's okay here's my tokens

These are just my feelings sorry for the mixed emotions

I been feeling pain for so long, I done became numb

I don't make it no better, I give my heart to whoever they take it and they run

You had me, but you lost me, I'm not mad I'm exhausted

Please, please if you come around give me something to make me smile

It's so many dark days, it's so many dark days and dark clouds

Been so many dark days, been so many dark days and dark clouds

It's so many dark days, it's so many dark days and dark clouds

Been so many dark days, been so many dark days and dark clouds