no one will ever know that you are my home Lyrics

I see you laughing

Over all the heads

Of everybody else

And you feel so far away

When I'm standing close to you

My body's tense

Thoughts are racing

Everything focused on you

And I don't care

I just want you to suffer

That's what I tell myself

When you're in my thoughts, yeah

Again and again

But

There doesn't seem to be a remedy

Your eyes and your jokes

Can't get you out of my memory

Just wanna feel you close

No one will ever know

No one will ever know

I'll never let this side show

I'll never let this side show

Go home for christmas

Hating every second in that cold Empty house

Drink myself numb every night

Just wanna get you out of my Mind

I know I'm in the wrong

I know that I'm at fault

And I wish that I could change

But there's a wall in my way

That wall that builds up even Higher

Every day, every time

Every time I say...

...Oh, I don't care

I just want you to suffer

That's what I tell myself

When you're in my thoughts, Yeah

Again and again

But

There doesn't seem to be a Remedy

Your eyes and your jokes

Can't get you out of my memory

Just wanna feel you close

No one will ever know

No one will ever know

I'll never let this side show

And you will never know

No, I'll never let you know

Cause I'm not good enough to Hold

To be held by someone like you

No one will ever know

Nobody'll ever know

That you are my home