Wrestle this confusion Lyrics

I am a restless wanderer

I'm as callous as a stone

The chip upon my shoulder grows

Like a spur up from my bone

And I try to understand you

And I'm baffled like the rest

In my loneliness I'm calling

And I put you to the test

There are seasons I remember

Some too good to be true, and

There are those I have forgotten

When the pain was too acute

And there is nothing left here for me

But to press on in my mind

While my plans die all around me

Seeking something I can't find

And you smash and tear me open

guide my hand to start the fire

Burn my idols down to ashes

While I ask you to provide

And I see my future fail me

And I'm consumed by one desire

This is more than I can handle

Is this Isaac on the pyre?

I am weary and ignoble

Sometimes bitter, still afraid

Looking back on desperation

And the messes I have made

If there are answers I don't see them

So don't tell me if you do

I will wrestle this confusion

I will wrestle this confusion

I will wrestle this confusion

If it's the last thing that I do