BURDENED Lyrics

Some nights I lie awake, wondering what could have been

A different choice made in the mind to unravel all the seams

A different way, a different dream

Impossible to see

Got me thinking who'd I be if things were 180 degrees

I was a young lad

Papa said I was mature enough to

Take the journey to a land beyond what-err was used to

Mama happily supported, gave her blessing too

But now I know, it hurt to see me leave so soon

I won't lie, the adventure made me so excited

The thought of "independence", sounded so enticed

I made my vow; never let them down whenever needed

Yet here I am, not sure I'd pass if litmus tested

A few months gone, the path of being homesick

Chilly days and loneliness, made things toxic

Thought I found love but only made a wound kick

Found myself often searching for that home shit

So when the night is long

And all is said and done

I ask myself

If I ever failed you

Ohhh ohhh ohhh

And at the end of the day

When all is said and done

I hope to God

That I never failed you

Nahh nahh

Back to the past's present, on to a new life

They wanted better for me, won't die without a fight

Let go of simple comfort just to see me thrive

Made big sacrifices, love I can't deny

But by 19, my mind was on a different circus

You see I felt something and it made me nervous

I sought a road so far from the initial purpose

I still question myself if I was being heartless

Well, I can never fully know

The decision back then led to many open roads

There was no way to measure, the future wasn't told

Had to find a compromise, put two lives in a mold

Don't get it twisted, shit's never been easy

With three other younglings, things were never rosy

And I feel the pressure, always had to impress

So hard to do you when you come as the first

So when the night is long

And all is said and done

I ask myself

If I ever failed you

Ohhh ohhh ohhh

And at the end of the day

When all is said and done

I hope to God

That I never failed you

Nahh nahh