JOYFUL DENIAL Lyrics

Pain

Is some shit that comes with personalised info cards

Delivered quietly at your door step

Free shipping for packages you didn't ask

No returns, VATs, long prep

Throw in depression, the good cousin

Hearing hits that be bussing from the six by nines like

"To swallow and nothing"

"The perfect writhing" or

"Good brain, hard splatting"

And I've felt pain, heavy depression same

But this is different

Cause I swear I'm in a good plane

I'm in a good place

Things feel rosy

Days are happy

Creatively wealthy

Mind's sharp, always ready

Focused, keeping steady

I swear I'm happy

But it just feels like I'm lying

Joyful denial

Yeah yeah yeah

Take the scales off my eyes

I wanna see, I wanna see

Joyful denial

Yeah yeah yeah

Take the scales off my eyes

Oh yes, oh yes

You know

I'm where I hoped to be

In that phase I'd always see

Heavily felt would be the master key

To unlock this mind cage, finally set me free

And I'm who I longed to be

Humming bird, bumbling bee

On the path of "aim to achieve"

Unrelenting, still tryna be a better me right

So why the sneaky tears and sadness?

Why do my eyes lose sleep deep in the darkness?

Why am I wary of a certain madness?

And taking actions that show a type of hardness

It's meant to be strength and positivity right?

Happy people don't cry in bed at night

Right?

Happy people don't do shit like that

Joyful denial

Yeah yeah yeah

Take the scales off my eyes

I wanna see, I wanna see

Joyful denial

Yeah yeah yeah

Take the scales off my eyes

Oh yes