FiNdInG MySeLf Lyrics

(Sagittarius got sum here)

I've been focused on the love

Hadn't been focused on me in a minute now

I can't speak no I can't spit it out

I'm a lost boy just tryna be found

I can't ask for help my thoughts are always keeping me down

Look at me

Look at the frown that I keep

It went away

But it's come back recently

I can say it's bout a girl

But it's just my mentality

I've been feeling like shit for years

It's just now effecting me

The voices in my head tellin me to quit

The voices in my head tellin me I'm shit

The voices in my head

I don't know how to manage it

I tell a bitch they tell they clique

I tell the bros they tell the hoes

That shit don't mix it don't make no sense

But that's just how shit goes

I care too much about everybody else

That I barely think about myself

I be feeling like I'm selfish

I be feeling like a narcissist

I don't feel like anybody want me around

So I stay by myself

But then they tell me that I shouldn't be alone

Even though they never hit my phone

Man I'm so confused

I've been focused on y'all

Hadn't been focused on me in a minute now

I'm tryna speak but nothing's even coming out

I'm still a lost boy just tryna be found

I'm tryna ask for help my thoughts are still keeping me down

Feeling better had to take some medicine

Had to knock sum sense up in my head again

Gods helped me ain't need a reverend

Not a single thanks that I could send to him

I didn't know I would be so empty

I knew that no one else could help me

And I've looking been for so long

To find nothing else was helping

But now I've been riding 'round early in morning

Bass bumping music playin loud

Make my mama proud that's been my only goal

I gotta make it happen now

Soon whatever i do

The only thing that matters

Is making the music move

Life ain't easy life is hard oh god I know

There was more than one time where it really showed

Granny died I survived

Heart broke many times and still I rise

I was drowning in a pool and people watched as

I fought for life

The spark in me slowly left my eyes

No tears could escape my eyes

In that moment i knew

Not a single person will always be by my side

I've been focused on the music

I'm tryna get focused on me now

I can speak oh I can finally spit it out

Was a lost boy just tryna be found

Now I can ask for help my thoughts won't ever keep me down again