Praying To A God Lyrics

Hey mom, where you at now

You see your baby boy's all grown up

Keep on watching from a distance

That social media shit's getting old

I was looking for answers at the bottom of every bottle

Before I popped out the question, they answered it with a motto

Said I'd never make it if I live on the edge of my past

Now I'm hoping I can change it if I ever get the chance

You thought that I fell off when I just lost the motivation

Yeah, I said it before, but I found the path laid out with pavement

Now I'm back in my lane and I ain't returning to the basement

Born to be one of the greatest, something my father had stated

Something my mother reiterated every day

From the phone calls in her cell to the letters I heard her pray

To a God she don't believe in, but maybe her son he'd save

Little did she know it was me that would turn away

Now she's begging for forgiveness for the sacrifice she made

But I'll never give in again, I'ma take it to the grave

I've been begging for forgiveness for a decade and you strayed

Now I'm on my own alone with the family here that I made

And I'm praying to a God I don't believe in for the same

All in hope that he'd listen or take a message, but he didn't

I've been questioning why ever since you left me here to finish

By the end of my life I hope that I'm not the one who did it

Praying to a God I don't believe in for the same

All in hope that he'd listen or take a message, but he didn't

I've been questioning why ever since you left me here to finish

By the end of my life I hope that I'm not the one who did it

What we started when I was only a kid with a vision

First I asked you for the truth, now I'll dare you in the kitchen

That I turned into a booth when I was looking for a witness

If you count out the minutes you'd see I doubted my limits

Might have cut my chance in half, now I'll double it with stitches

The old me's dead and gone with life two simple incisions

I know I said it once before, now I'm the predator and victim

Cause I've been killing myself, if you'd listen then you would get it

Like the lies that you told about all the bands that you stole

When I was a kid on the run, I was trying to find my soul

I was homeless half a decade, you could check my receipts

Got a couple dozen spots, I know that I could go to sleep

Cause my thoughts are always haunting my conscience

I'm in a prism, not a prison

A vision that was twisted by my kin when I was little

Now if life's a bitch, I'll leave her in a couple ditches

Chopped up and screwed, feed her organs to the fishes

Praying to a God I don't believe in for the same

All in hope that he'd listen or take a message but he didn't

I've been questioning why ever since you left me here to finish

By the end of my life I hope that I'm not the one who did it

Praying to a God I don't believe in for the same

All in hope that he'd listen or take a message but he didn't

I've been questioning why ever since you left me here to finish

By the end of my life I hope that I'm not the one who did it