Letter To My Former Self Lyrics

A decade and a half, and I'm better than half a decade Went from student to teacher and then

became my own sensei And now I'm throwing glass stones inside

of a cave to watch them detonate Sitting here alone with the aftermath trying

to meditate Regulate a spectator and keep him in the distance

Efficiently finish him like what's left on the dishes

Explicitly vicious, my venom, leave him with the fishes

Officially witnessed swimmers that quivered final wishes

'Cause the bars that I delivered spitting acid got you tripping

Wondering if I'ma come through the window like I was slim

But now I'm meaner than that, now I'm eager to scrap

And I don't have to ride a curse because I'm gifted in rap

But fuck that, see me coming like the basics are back

If you're lost then you better go and ask Dora for a map

Bring an orange and then hoard it before the Four door Ford is back

Look at that, I'm still gonna make it with the target on my back

This is only the beginning, so don't be giving me pity

You weren't there when I was down, you only doubted me winning

You weren't around when I was out and I was roaming the city

You were up inside a house all nice and warm with a titty

That isn't sweet anymore, I heard that it's tough from the kitty

You only talk behind my back when you don't think I'ma hear it

Now I'm counting all the times I heard the thunder, but don't fear it

I'm only striking lightning twice in the same place if I'm near it

You better recognize we're wrecking eyes with an appearance

It's apparent I'm a parent, but it's time that I should air it

I got a son who lives less than 30 miles away

With a mom that let us meet, but only if I don't relay

All the facts about my life, how he has sisters by my name

Unnecessary drama was the phrase she chose to take

Said my daughters weren't his sisters, bitch that's DNA

Like the test you never even wanted me to fucking take

Now I'm looking at the picture like a clone of my own face

And I promise by the time that I'm laying inside my grave

My son'll get to know how much I loved him, why he's great

Why I've never gone a day without praying that he was safe