not fine Lyrics

What were you doing that day in July

When you looked at me softly, I thought I could cry

Til I ran away quickly right into a cave

I buried myself into dirt, it's my grave

And my lips, they are trembling, my hands how they shake

A frown upside down is a smile that is fake

One day I'll be gone, all that's left is my rhymes

I fear the day my name is said for the last time

My showers are scalding, it distracts my mind

From the shaking and breaking inside

I say that I'm fine

But babe, I'm not fine

I'm not fine

I'm not fine

I'm not fine

I'm not fine

So I draw pictures in mirrors because I cannot stand

The one in reflections, so I'll think of a plan

To exit so softly, not leaving a trace

So one day my own children forget my name

And my lungs now are burning, I'm covered in ash

I can't take the breath that should be my last

I'll muster up my final words, force them from my mind

Look you dead into your eyes

And say that I'm fine

I'll say that I'm fine

I'll say that I'm fine

But babe, I'm not fine

I'm not fine

I'm not fine