A Piece of Me. Lyrics

Eroded away brain

Can't stay home

Irritable take a break

Pain like a grain in my iris

Hyper-focussed, moody

Want it all to make sense

Want it all to go away

Maybe the lens of beauty is in the mystery

Tatters of cloth with stories of my victories

And defeats. lift my spirit I feel weak right now

Liable for no one but me or so I think

But I've always been one to hold the family down

Meanwhile, feet sinking to the depths

Denial grieving for no reason feeling senile

And out of touch

Why can't I think straight?

Why can't I see straight?

Why can't I change the outlook of my own fate?

Why is it all so hard?

Why am I anxious at home?

Why does it feel like I try but get the same results?

How do I fix this?

Where does it all begin?

What is the other choice?

Because right now I'm hurting

When does the growth start?

When is the breakthrough?

Holding out for so long without seeing new views

I'm talking to you God because no one else gets it

Or maybe they do and that's part of my questions

I don't want a premature trip up to heaven

And I'm scared that if I die I won't get in

Got truly saved when I was just eleven

Baptized twice

Burnt coal on my lips

And prophecied to when I was a young kid

But since high school, it felt like a regression

Hospitalizations

And medications

Therapists telling me different

I was just a kid last night, now I'm looking for my innocence

I was wandering, the street lights guiding, walk with vigor and

Searching for a hand to hold, endless sea of predicaments

Mend and weave, efferent nerves, feel it when I bleed

Blended sea of emotions at varying degrees

Swimming through the tumult ain't easy

Looking for Jesus while he walks on the seas

White knuckle gripping anything to find sweet release

A piece of my mind

A piece of my heart

A piece of my life

I'm falling apart