Ouroboros (Intro) Lyrics

Hey, what's up, it's Jinari Kemet, sorry I missed your call

Leave a message, and I just, uh, I've just been going through some stuff lately

I'm sure you've probably heard, and that's why you're reaching out

And I appreciate it I'm just tired

I feel stuck, or, like, trapped in a lot of ways, and, um

The crazy part about it is that it's my own fault

Like, I feel like at this age I should be better off than I am

I mean, I'm comfortable, I got a nice foundation here

But it feels empty, and, whenever I'm given an opportunity to do better

Like a chance to have more, I second guess it, because

I don't want to have to risk what I've built here, you know

But at the same time, I want to be more than just ordinary

So I hate that taking chances is so fucking scary to me

Like, I thought I'd be married at this point with a couple kids or

Traveling across the country playing gigs or

Even buying a house to fix it up and then flip

Building a studio and then charging niggas to spit

Finishing my degree so that I can say I'm legit

The paper speak for itself and I ain't gotta do shit

While I'm focusing on the mission

Get the money I'm chasing, raising my credit score

And not touching my savings, proficient with every minute I'm spending

Hoping I make it, opening every door

The Othercide is waiting like, fuck, it's all a dream

Cause honestly

I really haven't had the time to talk about it

Ain't got no time to open up I got a million things on my plate

But it's not a smoking gun that you had seen a post I made

Was the meaning, spoken in tongues? you're conspiratorial

For ignoring the number one piece of evidence that it's evident

I got it on lock, with the elements of my arrogance

I probably won't stop, it's embedded down to my skeleton

And all that I got, I'm protected from all rejection

I ain't shooting my shot, yeah it hurts

And I've gone as far as to question my worth

Cause having dreams you never catch can really feel like a curse

And every year that goes by is only making it worse

What if I can't become a father, what is my purpose on earth

I done fell in love with something I never had

Like wanting to be a husband or even a better dad

But are these feelings legit is the question I need to ask

Or am I just compromising for something within my grasp

Something that's self serving, something that's validating

Something that's so perfect that it could never betray me

Something that's so worth it I wouldn't have to explain it

If I could just start painting then, you would know what I'm making

I'm saying it with my chest, I've been doing my very best

But when I look up to the sky, I just feel like you're not impressed

I'm convinced that you don't exist, but I wish that I had the bliss

Of the ignorant motherfuckers who knew you since they were kids

I don't mean to be disrespectful, but understand that I'm pissed

But never feeling regret, I just wanna know what I did

To deserve the mind that I have, that'll see through the bullshit

Because maybe if I believed it I'd have a reason to live

For something more than the surface, something bigger than me

Something that I can work with in person that I can see

Something a lowly skeptic could never begin to question

If you know how to address him, leave a message at the beep

Damn, that was a long ass voicemail, anyway

This Jabali, save my new number, I'mma pretend

That's why you ain't answering, anyway