Last To Fall Lyrics

Have you ever had your back against the wall

And the only remedy is self-destruction

Rest assured that when that pressure is your fault

Keeping it in will yield external repercussions

I've been in the dark for so long, I never adjusted

When the light was turned on, I saw the reflection

Of a heart that's so gone it couldn't be rescued

From the start, I've been wrong, my only regret

Is that I let you get caught in my conflict

And the only thing I learned is that I'm not equipped

My mind is sick and nobody should bond with it

Until I seek a therapist who can respond to this

The only moment that I'm vulnerable

Is when I'm talking to myself

Staring in the mirror and I'm hoping he can help

I see that look of terror looking back at someone else

And clarity's a killer, get that gun from off the shelf

Eyes are closed so I don't know who I can go to

Don't have no time to show you how to find the truth

Despite being blind, with lose screws did I abuse you

Wait, skip the self-analysis, I'm taking a different route

Love is but a sin and now I'm coming to get the proof

Sick of my reflection always telling me what to do

If I gotta end him better believe that I'mma shoot

Hold up, we've been doing this for some time

Could you tell me what's on your mind

Don't lie, say that you fine, I promise I'mma show up

Like I should've been from the start

Been trying to play my part but it's been

Hard to open my heart because

I've been let down, I can't pretend it didn't hurt

Now my paranoia's only getting worse

I try to hold it down but nothing ever works

I can't avoid it, man, I think I might be cursed

I wanna move forward but my past is here to stall

Been here before and I just had to have it all

I've hit the floor and now my back's against the wall

If love is a war, I'll make sure

I'm the last to fall

I ain't never felt so lifted, I ain't never felt so gifted

But still I'm stressed

Tell me if I do things different

Give you everything you missing would you be impressed

I didn't get to choose these feelings

But real love's truly appealing when you don't expect

To fall head first in commitment

Even when you're physically distant put it to the test

Phone'll be on silent when I'm with you

Couldn't paint a better picture I could look at every time I wake

Searching for a person who is worth it while we

Pulling back the curtain on the lessons we can learn on the way

Everybody got a lot of demons, I don't really know the reason

But we try to find the ones we can take

But only with somebody trying to beat them

If they don't then we can leave them and acknowledge that we

Made a mistake

Pick up the pieces and put them together

I'm sure you'll feel better when your heart is whole

Stick with the people who been through the weather with you

And who'd never leave you on your own

Keeping no secrets and fully invested

In finding the best in the qualities shown

Promise forever I'll always protect you

And though I've been distant, my presence is known

Hold up, we've been doing this for some time

Could you tell me what's on your mind

Don't lie, say that you fine, I promise I'mma show up

Like I should've been from the start

Been trying to play my part but it's been

Hard to open my heart because

I've been let down, I can't pretend it didn't hurt

Now my paranoia's only getting worse

I try to hold it down but nothing ever works

I can't avoid it, man, I think I might be cursed

I wanna move forward but my past is here to stall

Been here before and I just had to have it all

I've hit the floor and now my back's against the wall

If love is a war, I'll make sure

I'm the last to fall