blossoming. Lyrics

In a field of dreams, exploring my acts and misdeeds

Holding back myself from what I can be

Opening the hatch

Watch corrosive thoughts leak

Out down for the count

Grounded in my faith I doubt

Crowded voices try to shout

Try to ignore the fear of losing the bout

Of losing my outlet

Of losing my soul

Right after I found it

Pound for a pound

I'm putting my all in it

Renowned for nothing

Astounded I shuffle

My perspective

Roundabout

Cross etched bluffing

Invested in one thing

One person

One moment

Interest incurring

One dollar

Turns to hundreds

Of ideas and mind flayers

Crying my eyes out till

I'm dried up and flushed out

Blind faith in what's now

A season of growth

Blind, but seeing that I'm destined

For things bigger than me

Finding my way through creases

Messages of hope that I'm hoping you see

This as more than a one-way street of releasing my grief

Of depleting my feelings

Apathy is the silent disease

Gradually I see that it all means something

If not to you then someone

If not to me then who am I other than a no-one?

A sense of identity found in creating and sharing my heart even in my weakness

Vulnerability, I wear my heart up on my sleeve and bleed emotions

Embracing my meekness

Overbearing, oversharing, meaningful deep-seated connections between us

And I'm happy that someone is here just to see it

And now I'm blossoming